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Finding the Way to My Truth
Identifying My Truth
A number of years ago now, I met Mila and Oa for the first time. I had arrived in Hawaii to attend my first Intensive. Since I had not yet been to a International Ascension Conference event, Mila and Oa were to give me an in-person reading to assist me in preparing for the group class. So, on this night I walked over for my reading.
I met them in the room where the reading was to be held. They seemed like an interesting looking couple, quite different than other teachers I had worked with. I sat down on the chair where they indicated, and they seated themselves as well. Then, in a deep and very serious tone, Oa spoke.
“Why are you here,” he said.
Surely a shocked look must have come over my face from such an unexpected question. In the heat of the moment, I could not remember if he emphasized the “why,” the “you,” or the “here;” and so I was not quite sure how to reply. But, I was fresh from the bowels of the corporate world, having only just left a long-time career in manufacturing engineering. I was used to questions from less than friendly audiences. And so I said the only thing that came to mind.
“That is a very good question,” I said.
Knowing, of course, that my reason for such a reply was not to flatter or amuse or placate or beg acceptance. I was simply creating a little time. I was sure that there must be a correct answer to the question, and perhaps only one correct answer. So, in the few seconds that followed I searched my mind – up and down, right and left, back and front. But, the only thought that seemed to remain in my head was the one thing that I knew to be true. And, so I finally replied, “I am here to help Earth,” all the while thinking that surely this must be the silliest answer they had ever heard from a new student.
As humans, truth has become mixed up along with all other pieces of our humanness. As we ascend, we begin to sort out the pieces, retrieving what has been lost, returning what is not ours, becoming more whole, sovereign, and a more complete reflection of the truth that is our own. Sometimes, the truth is there, and it is simply a matter of removing the non-truth within in order to see our own individual truth that we came to express in this life.
Living My Truth
This meeting with Mila and Oa was perhaps the first time I had consciously acknowledged to myself the role I had come to fulfill upon in this lifetime. I had joined SSOA and had come to the event because I wanted to assist this body of consciousness – this “big mama” that we call the Earth Mother – go home. I had a truth to express as a guardian of earth and as an ascending human. Now I just had to find out how it was I could live this truth of purpose in a life filled with many other responsibilities which you might call distractions.
And so, over the next few years, I began to peel off those things that either were not a reflection of my truth or needed to be transcended so that I could be free to begin to live my truth. First, I peeled away from the preoccupation that did not support my ascension and perhaps had never been my real truth. And so I left the job that I never felt comfortable in and had never provided me with personal fulfillment, though it had provided the funds for living. Then, I peeled away the city, moving from the dessert of the Southwest to the mountains of the Inland Northwest. The city where I had spent the last ten years no longer felt good. And, I knew that I needed a place where I could breathe and that could support my ascending body.
I even began to peel away responsibilities I had taken on with family. I learned that controlling them took away from their independence which took away from mine. I learned that fixing their problems with money took away the joy for them to create their own dream. My children were getting teenagers and were well on their way to their independence any way. My daughter moved out after graduating from high school. And, this past year, my son earned his driver’s license. As he joyfully celebrated his newfound freedom, I quietly celebrated my own. I learned to move beyond my fear that something would happen while he was driving, and instead began to push his ancestors into him (those that new how to drive and preferred going very slowly) so they could teach him to remain grounded. I learned to pull any accident karma from the car before he got in. And I learned to enjoy the extra time I had gained from hanging up my taxi cap.
The changes around us often reflect the transformation within us. As we let go of the things in our lives that do not support us, then we can also let go of the patterns within that do not support a full expression of our truth as ascending humans. And as the landscape within changes, then the landscape around us also changes. And those people and places that remain around us begin to more greatly reflect what lies within, acting as the mirrors of what needs to be transcended next as we continue on in our personal evolution.
Aligning Support From Those Around Me
I needed to change so that my life could change. My life needed to change so that I could become a greater reflection of my truth. Perhaps I had gotten through the most difficult period of aligning my life to my truth. Now I needed to gain the support of those around me. After all, my habits had drastically changed. I sometimes drove off in the middle of the night so that I could scream at and kick out of my field the nonphysical that did not want me to continue my ascension. I no longer watched television and became a little testy if it interfered with my meditation. I moved into a vegetarian diet and became less cooperative when cooking dinner.
But, as I continued to define my new life, and as I continued to allow each of those around me to define their own life and pace of change, then we could find a new place of balance with each other, a new flow that worked for all of us. Last year, I found that I needed to redefine my marriage. There had been too many unconscious agreements attached to the traditional definition of marriage under which we had defined our relationship. I had done what I could to gather up all these agreements and break them. But, still there seemed to be pieces that I could not shift. It felt as if they were still coming through our rings, that common symbol of marriage that many of us wear.
So, one day, as we were taking a drive, I told my husband that “stuff” was happening, and I couldn’t seem to get it to stop, and I thought it was coming through our wedding rings. I told him that I thought we should just take them off. He looked a little confused, but had become used to my strange requests, and so he complied. A couple of days later he expressed how much of a burden had been lifted off of him. He offered to put his ring back on if I wanted, but was happy to keep going without it if I wished.
I, on the other hand, was not as comfortable with my decision. I was really surprised as I watched myself and how I reacted without the comfort of a wedding ring and what it meant in society. I noticed how I put my left hand in my pocket when I went to my son’s high school to talk to the clerk. And I wondered if the notary thought my husband and I must be brother and sister since we did not wear rings and yet had the same last name. It took me several weeks before I was comfortable walking around with my bare left hand. That was certainly unexpected to me, though it showed me how much my life was scripted by society and how much freedom I still needed to gain as I continued to transcend old programming and patterning. But as I continued to transcend the layers that were not a pure expression of my truth, my family continued to reflect that transcendence.
When we first moved to our new home in a new town, my son decided to play football. Football! The one sport that I really did not like, it looked so much like a war game. But I knew that he needed to find his own way. After all, I had not brought up my children in an environment free from television and meat. And I did not feel it was fair for me to expect them to change as rapidly as I was changing. And so, each Friday that winter I put on my long underwear, sweats, coat, wool socks, scarf, hat, gloves, and snow shoes. I carried my blankets, umbrella, and stadium seat. I sat on the aluminum benches and quietly wondered if there were any mirrors I should be looking at in the groups of boys running after each other up and down the field. And I quietly sat with my meditation CDs playing through my headphones and pushed ancestors who knew how to ascend into each person in the stadium. I repeated the same thing this past winter.
Now last May, after returning from teaching an ascension workshop, I felt I needed to make a change to reflect my deepening commitment to life and ascension. And, so I asked my husband if he could support me in removing all the meat from the refrigerator and no longer keeping meat in the house. If necessary, I offered to put a small refrigerator in the garage. But, I was willing to cook meat substitutes with our dinner, if he wanted. He agreed. I was very surprised.
About 10 days later, my son came home from school and asked to speak with my husband and myself. Thoughts began to race through my mind as I waited for my husband. I was sure he must have been kicked out of school or failed a class. I did not know what to expect. But, when my husband arrived, my son had an unexpected announcement. He had decided to quit football. Expecting a disappointed reaction from my husband, I kept a serious look on my face and did not smile. But, inside I was celebrating. I was sure it must have been a result of removing the death and destruction of meat products from the house.
That may have not been the case. Actually, it may be that he had completed with his coach. His coach created winning teams and expressed himself much like a CEO of a corporation. His football program was well-known amongst the colleges in the state. The past year the team had won the state championship, no small feat for a small high school in Northern Idaho. I was pretty sure this coach used pyramidal energy to win. I knew I had been pulled into his pyramid at the first parent meeting I had attended. He was very inspiring when he talked, and he appeared to have a strong Apollo lineage that he expressed himself through. I had worked with my son’s ancestors to assist him in clearing his karma with his coach. And so, perhaps separating from the team was more a reflection of his own transcendence.
None the less, what I continue to find is that as I continue to transcend; as I continue to live my truth; and as I continue to allow my life to be a greater expression of my truth; then, also, those around me seem more willing to align themselves and their truths with mine.
As we as ascending humans allow ourselves to express that which we are without feeling bounded by the opinions of others; as we allow our life to be an expression of our truth without feeling the need to remain silent and without feeling the need to argue; then we will find that those around us support us in our goals – or they simply move out of our life dance to allow room for others to move in.
Sherry Stapleton has been part of the Spiritual School of Ascension for the past five years. She enjoys her time working with nature and other ascending humans in support of the ascension of the whole. She offers readings as well as herbal tinctures in support of this goal. She may be reached at newdream@adelphia.net.
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