Joy and happiness have been long forgotten words in my extended tapestry of ancestry. What was put in their place was obligation, duty, give to others, be at the end of the receiving line, work hard, struggle, be humble, do not ask for anything and you get what you get. Wow! This is not what I would want for anyone however these distant haunting echoes of the past have permeated my existence in this life where lack, limitation and non-fulfillment have become the norm.
I was the good little girl and did everything my parents asked of me from doing the dishes, hanging the clothes and cleaning the house. I was very quiet, stayed in the background so not to draw attention to myself and get in trouble. This also carried over into school year age where I was the teacher’s pet and did everything I could to please them. I got straight A’s, honors and awards in high school and college and worked hard as a teacher in the public schools.
I look back at all of this and realize that I was desperately looking for love. However, if anyone would have offered me love at the time, I probably would not have received it for I did not feel worthy of it. I would have given it away or it would have bounced off the ice shields of my closed heart; very sad, but very true.
I have worked hard in my ascension to break through the programming and patterning to be good, be what others want me to be and have tried to forge ahead with ideas and creative projects that are unique to my own expression of self; however the walkway I have paved for myself has been very narrow and limiting.
I was a public school music teacher for 15 years and tried to create variety in this limiting truth by working at different age levels, teaching different areas in music such as general music, choir, and jazz band and marching band. I also began to travel to different states and teach which created new experiences however I was still stuck within the confines and parameters of a music teacher and in a profession that did not bring me joy.
It was only when I started to incorporate simple ascension techniques with the students that I began to enjoy myself for this resonated with my truth and brought me authentic joy and happiness. I had fun sharing with the children fun stories, energy movements and visualization techniques and it brought me great joy to watch them “light up” when they interacted with my sharing of my truth. I started to align to a bigger purpose and began working with Earth to incorporate healing, blessings and assist with changing the dream in the educational system and this also resonated with my truth and I felt a sense of fulfillment and accomplishment.
I have enjoyed being that “spark” that triggers others in their awakening and to assist others with looking at their life from a different perspective so I began to weave a dream to offer consultations. I started giving readings a few years ago and this has brought me great joy! It is a different feeling than doing entertaining things that society defines as being fun like going to the movies, out to the clubs or to an amusement park. The joy experienced when one is expressing or partaking in an activity that is in alignment with one’s truth creates an internal sense of fulfillment, joy, happiness, peace and contentment. It is not done out of obligation or duty or a false idea of joy, but is eagerly looked forward to in the preparation and a sense of fulfillment is experienced in the completion.
I still continue to teach however I am a substitute teacher and can go to work when I want and I work this around my reading schedule. This also creates a sense of freedom and joy and there is much work being done in collaboration with Earth during the times I am at work with the children so I feel again that sense of fulfillment.
Weaving one’s way into more joy, happiness and fulfillment and out of drudgery, obligation and non-fulfillment requires looking at all the reasons one feels obligated in the first place. There will always be thought forms and patterning triggered that makes one stay in a job they are unhappy with or in a relationship or friendship that feels heavy, boring and cumbersome. The questions one can ask is: “Why am I in this relationship or job? Does this bring me joy or happiness? Do I need to stay in this situation or is there another alternative I can explore?”
Sometimes leaving a job or a relationship prematurely does not allow one to complete their karma in full and one ends up calling a similar dance to oneself in the next job or relationship they end up in. Often, many people have stayed in a situation for TOO LONG and they are long overdue for a change. This is when anger and resentment starts to grow, misery sets in and if it goes on for too long, negative energy turned inward will create disease in the physical form and one will become ill. This is when one knows it is time to make a change in one’s life.
It is very scary for many to make a change and leave the confines and the comforts of a dance they have known for so long. However, if one can push past the fear, learn to put their wants and needs first by honoring and loving oneself, then one would see they are deserving of a better life filled with more joy, happiness and fulfillment.
At this time in global ascension, Earth is working with the Tao which is a force outside of time and space that does not know lack. It has abundance of love and the Heart of the Tao has extended itself to this region to assist in our return journey home. When connecting with the Heart of the Tao, one can fill oneself to the brim with love allowing it to flow and flow and flow until it fills all parts of self and one’s dream. This will trigger that which is non-truth to leave and assist one in pushing through one’s deepest fears that keeps one imprisoned in a dance of non-joy, non-truth, non-love and non-fulfillment.
As one puts them self first in their life and continues to transcend all limitation and lack thought form, one can weave a dream that brings more joy and fulfillment to the dance of life. It is when one follows their heart and is true to them self that another path shall open up on one’s journey that was not thought possible. This is the gift of being the dreamer and the dream where one envisions their dream and sees it to fulfillment.
So, fill yourself with the love of the Tao and allow all that is ready to leave fall off and one will make room for the bigger dream that is in alignment with one’s truth bringing more joy and happiness to the dance of life.
Many Blessings on weaving your dreams and filling them with much joy, love, happiness, peace and fulfillment!
Namaste,
Rhonda
If you would like assistance in transcending key patterns in your current life expression, please feel free to contact me at unity.in.community@lycos.com
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