Horse and Foal by Anne Collins

 

 

FINDING THE BELOVED

 

By Sheree Nami and Horse

 

 

 

Many people believe that having a beloved is about meeting ones perfect match, having great sex and living happily thereafter.  This is not necessarily so.  Often living with ones beloved can be very confronting, often causing friction if one is not prepared to face ones own patterning.  Being with ones beloved is not about sex but more about allowing the sexual energy to flow between each other and with Earth and nature in communion.

 

A beloved can be almost anybody from another person of the same sex or different sex, even a different species or ones own soul. 

 

One day quite some years ago, I intended a beloved.  By this time I had decided that I did not want another man in my life ever again as I found that being on my own was far more fulfilling and having a girlfriend wasn’t all that appealing to me.   But I still thought having a beloved was something I wanted, probably out of codependent patterning.  I was starting to find my inner beloved, or to connect with soul.   So apparently I was getting closer to being ready to meet my beloved in the physical.  Hmmm.  This must mean I will meet an ascending man who is right for me and I will be ok with this. 

 

Two years ago this intention came to be and I met my beloved.  This beloved was neither a man nor was she human.  She is a horse! 

 

We met one day when I was moving house, during the time I was away from SSOA.  We “clicked” right away.  It turned out she was for sale due to karma that caused an unforeseen accident.  Merduk karma of which we have similar.  We also have similar pasts of abuse and neglect and so similar patterning in some ways too.   I wanted this horse to stay but was not going to buy her.  The lady that had her offered her to me for nothing.  So she came to me out of soul agreements in more of an honorable way than buying and selling slaves.    We were all happy with this arrangement.

 

Macy is her name and she is the most kind and gentle horse I have ever met.  We are ascending together.  One could say she is the equine equivalent of me and vice versa.  We communicate holographically and so there is little we don’t understand with each other. We hang out together for a part of most every day and commune. I have learnt how to be me with her and that I do not need to sacrifice myself in any way where she is concerned.  She understands if I need to be away for a time and has often encouraged me to do what I need for me.  I do not feel criticized if she points out things about me that are less than positive. Or that I need to work upon.  When she has similar needs I have learnt this is not a rejection to me but rather she is honoring herself in needing time do her horse stuff.  Whether or not we are physically side by side or not doesn’t really matter too much most of the time as we stay connected most of the time anyway.  She comes to events with the Horse Kingdom and we often enjoy together.

 

If there is something she needs or wants I know what it is and do my best to provide these things for her even if it is only an apple, which means a lot to her.  She does not need much and has no need of things really other than food and love and a place to live.  I thought I didn’t much either until I met Macy.  I have far far less than most and she has far far less than me. We both have far far more of things like love than most others.

 

Macy is an amazing teacher and healer.  One of many things that I learnt from her so far is that nature is also as co dependent as us humans in some ways.  During a karmic time with Zeus, Macy thought to try and heal me.   In the process of this she got beaten up by another horse smaller by far than her.   This was not her karma and she became compromised.  We worked together on this and she healed rapidly and we cleared our karma for this and the other horse changed her behavior toward Macy.  Since then she has not tried to do it for me and I try not to do it for her.

 

We certainly have our disagreements!  Sometimes she wants something that I cannot or will not agree to like opening the gate or letting down the tape to the driveway.  So she will often go and pull it down herself.  When she sees me coming she looks at me saying “Oh Oh!”  Sometimes she refuses to do things that I ask of her like NOT pulling down the tape or going back to the paddock when its time. Or not standing still when I trim her feet.  I get cranky with her and she will  just walk away knowing I will look at the mirror and try and work it out.

 

On the other hand I am often amazed that she is happy to do most anything I ask of her.  Onlookers have often commented on this.  I may say something like “Macy would you mind moving this group away from the gate so I can get through?”  And she will come and do so.  Or I might say “Macy its time to go back to the paddock “and she will go stand at the gate of which ever paddock she wants to go this time.  Or even stand at my car looking in the back where my hoof trimming tools are and stomping a foot or two when she needs her feet done.

 

Often when she is being uncooperative or even overly affectionate, she is trying to tell me something is wrong. When I had a stroke is a good example.  She tried to warn me something was up.  And then when I came home she helped me see what was left of the geometry on the land that would cause me to have another stroke.  We worked together clearing what was left.

 

We live side by side in nature with other horses and wildlife and love it here.  I would not move to another place if Macy could not come with me and she feels the same.  She sometimes has the opportunity to live freer, in a herd situation on many hundreds of acres.  I open the gate for her and she refuses to go with the others.  She would rather stay with her beloved. 

 

We are ascending beloveds and do not wish to be apart.  We both have the opportunity to do so but do not.  A day will come when she will wish to meet a handsome stallion and have the ascending foal.  Maybe the day will come when I wish to have a male human beloved, A man that will love me as much as Macy does and a man I can love as much as I do Macy.  We will see.  The time spent with Macy has given me the opportunity to be with a beloved as well as clear the patterning that prevents me from being with a human beloved at the same time.  What a wonderful gift!  Its having the cake and eating it too!

 

It seems to Horse that many humans limit themselves to prior thought form in many areas of the life (in this case the idea that a beloved has to be a human) and in so doing miss out on incredible experiences and learning.  Anything can be made manifest or manifest to suit ones own individual needs and preferences including the beloved. 

 

The next time you wish for something and feel that you cannot or should not create a dream for it, Horse and Zebra invites you to let go of all past patterning and programming that’s holds you in limitation of thought form and also invites you to call upon Horse and Zebra for assistance with this.

 

Blessings and Namaste

Sheree – Nami

Horse Kingdom

 

 

 

Sheree Nami offers one to one ascension consultations in collaboration with the Earth Mother and Horse Kingdom.  You can reach Sheree at sheree.ed1@bigpond.com.

 

 

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