Deer and Fawn by Gigi Rondeau
Standing in My Truth
Ingrid Kronholm and the Deer Kingdom
At International Ascension Conference in Maui I gave a speech on my thoughts about Truth and also held a mini workshop on the subject. This pushed me into looking at my beliefs about what truth is and is not and what standing in my truth means and does not mean to me. One thing I realised was that often I have thought that standing in your truth means to not be afraid of speaking up, telling others about what you think, like, need, want etc. But does that really have anything to do with truth? Is it not true that often when we think we stand in our truth, we actually express our judgments, our belief systems, our opinions and you could say our programming? And are not often false gods or personality entities channelling through in those moments?
When home in Sweden again I got a few lessons in standing in my truth that I would like to share. It started when I told my son’s teacher at his Waldorf preschool that we would not attend the upcoming advent celebration, since we are not Christian and do not celebrate Christmas in our family. She did not take this as an answer to why we would not come, since it would not be religious in her opinion, just spiritual. She pushed me further and finally I frankly said that we do not work with the same souls and energies as they do (since I perceive Sananda behind the Anthroposophist society) and that we won’t come.
A few days later another teacher asked me for a meeting together with the first teacher, to talk about my and my husband’s expectations about the preschool and the upcoming holidays. We booked a time for the meeting and I went home quite upset about it. Why would I be called for a personal meeting just because we do not want to participate in the preschool Christmas celebrations? Why not have a meeting with all parents to discuss the issue instead?
When I came to the meeting, a little earlier than I normally bring Leo home, he refused letting me have the meeting on my own and clung to me and cried. The two teachers were very serious and a bit upset and said it was absolutely improper to bring Leo to the meeting. So, we had to book an evening time a few days later instead, when I would be able to go on my own.
At this time I was very upset and thought that maybe it would be better that Johan went to the meeting instead, since he is the born diplomat and would be able to calm down the whole situation, whereas I often find myself going deeper and deeper into discussions leading to misunderstandings and hurt feelings when I try to stand in my truth.
But after a while I understood that if I ask Johan to go to the meeting, I would just get this lesson in another way instead, since it was my manifestation in the first place. So I started to look at why I had created this situation and why I called in this energetic and verbal war between me and the two preschool teachers. I intended to create a Ho’oponopono within and forgive all different religious, political and other kinds of beliefs in my ancestry that put ancestors against each other and had them fight for their beliefs and feel they had to defend themselves, thinking this was what standing in your truth is all about.
Out on a walk in the forest the next day I worked on how I tend to blend with others, sharing of my love and spiritual knowledge, thereby giving away of myself and what I have mastered in my ascension. I was deep in my own world and not too happy when I saw I was approaching an older lady out walking her dog.
My polite programming kicked in and I felt I had to say something and not just pass by her and so I said something about the weather and how nice it was to go for a walk in the forest. We kept talking and after a few minutes she asked me about my work and I told her I give spiritual consultations. She was very open to this and I started talking about the connection to nature and Earth Mother as a larger consciousness and she told me how she appreciates her walks and how she gets insights about her life when out in nature.
While sharing about all the animals she often encounters on her walks suddenly three raw deer came out into an opening in the forest and looked at us for a long while. Finally we started walking again and the lady asked me if I do not give away of myself when giving consultations. Just what I was working upon before I met her! After parting paths with her, I thanked the Deer Kingdom for co-creating this beautiful experience of sharing of my truth in a way that did not lead to any argument or misunderstanding.
The next day I had a meeting with the owner of a bed and breakfast situated in the forest near a little lake, not far from where I live. I wanted to check this place out to see if it would suite a three day workshop that I will host together with Sherry Stapleton in May. The owner was an older lady and she greeted me into the larger room, which would be the workshop room, and we sat down over a cup of tea. I explained what kind of workshop it will be and she was very interested and seemed to resonate very well with what I had to share. We talked for an hour, mostly about ascension and how I work with nature in healing myself and about the consultations I give. And so I got another chance to talk freely from my truth with someone who seemed to resonate with it!
Then it was time for the evening meeting with the preschool teachers. As a preparation I collapsed my and their space between so that no false gods would puff up and have a fight, I pushed the amalgamated ancestors into their fields, I intended to anchor as when I give consultations, I anchored the best possible dream for the meeting and intended to have a good time. And it worked!
In the dark winter evening we had this meeting at a candle lit table and over a cup of herbal tea. After a little stiff opening it turned out to be a two hour ascension introduction where I shared a lot and mostly they just asked me questions. There was no competition and just a lot of curiosity from them and many times we could see how resonant their truths were to mine, even if we sometimes use different words and expressions. It was an almost magical evening and I was very happy that I had been able to do my inner homework and anchor another dream than it started out as.
A part of my truth as I see it is to become a channel for Earth, nature, the ancestors and my Tao within to reach others. Sometimes consciously and verbally as in the three experiences I shared and sometimes more energetically touching others with blessings through my field. The Deer Kingdom has something to say about this:
Maybe standing in your truth can be something you do without even opening your mouth. What if you simply need to allow yourself to play your own music and quietly anchor your own dream of ascension to be standing in your truth. So why do so many of the truth bearers give their truth, music and dream away to others who do not seem to have a truth to ascend into themselves? This is something that each must delve into and release the underlying karma and patterning that repeat this dance through ones inheritance. You are here to change the dance, to break free of the chains of the past and to create a new future.
There is a song playing at this time. It is a song of love, hope and change. Everyone who attunes to this song and plays along will make the song louder and louder and fuller and fuller in sound. This is what is needed of humans at this time. To play along with the song emanating from the aurora of Earth and allow it to spread through you, touching others wherever you go. This is about empowering sweetness and love and leaving the discordant and destructive dance behind. You know in your heart that this is the purpose of your existence at this time and there is really nothing else of deep value.
Blessings for finding your song of love within
Deer Kingdom
Ingrid Kronholm offers one to one consultations in English and Swedish with the Earth Mother and Deer Kingdom. Ingrid can be reached at movinginward@gmail.com.
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